When I Have nothing At All

dear friends,

I wrote this story of mine to remind you of HIS love in our life. There were great times with Him when i felt really close and the sense of His arm around me was so thick, the pressence was greatly noticed....hum yup a smooth sailing love between me and my God....Yes there were obstacles, there were problems that hinder me...but when you know that ure walking with God, you know that nothing can against you no matter what it was.....

Well time flies by...HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER....And thats its true...But our love does not....When u are comfortly embraced by Him, pampered by His blessings and love....and all things goes as your plan (well sometimes u force ur plan to be HIS plan also)...then the alarm start ringing....ure start focusing on His work on ur life, His blessings on ur life, His plan for your future....and u didnt care about HIM, what He wants, what he thinks.....Who agrees with me that u will not pray as hard as when you have problems, debts, sickness??? and you will think that ure doing okay with Him when nothing is happening.....yes u are blessed, yes He helped you....becoz that is all what we think for......All HIS work, not He Him Self

I was amazed how He loved, blessed, taken care of my life...until im loosing my focus on those rather than He him self...:(
What i felt is like david when Saul's troops was after him...when he cried to God and it seems that He is not there....When He shout but it seems He is not there.....He start asking what God want him to do??? .... in this time i really felt that i have nothing at all, becoz i couldnt felt Him by my side....i felt lonely, sad, desperate....and asking what had gone wrong????

But I know..that He hide his presence because He wants me to rectify my heart, purify my heart, focusing on Him...that means
He LOVES me...He CARE about me...He wants my love more for HIM rather that His works....well again im amazed by His love...Thank You Jesus...I love U :)